Growing up

Making your way to a new place with a broken heart, thinking about how things could have turned out if a bit more effort was put into it.  This was me in the beginning of 2014, after the admission exams were done, I was able to enroll myself in a new but promising university, more importantly a public one. In the first few days, I hardly enjoyed this new life of mine, which was meant to be the most entertaining and engaging part of an individual. Things changed, circumstances became better, new people with brilliant thoughts came into being. This spurred some hope into what was a very disappointing start.

Maybe this is how life changes. You never know what is coming at your way, best way to deal with these things is to take it up on the chin and see where it takes you. Even being soft on the vocals I tried to know more people, get acquainted with this new place and my oh my! Some seniors really changed it for the betterment. I hardly looked back after that, from that point on it was all about how to be a cut above and preparing yourself for what the future holds.

I want to believe that at some point of this part of our life, we really take it the way it is and not whine and show depression for what we don’t have rather being grateful for all the opportunities we get, to make the best use of it. See for what your surrounding truly stands for and you might be awestruck for what you have been missing out all this time! The tendency to look for better things even though you have plenty is what brings misery to people’s life. Hardly will you find those who are content with what they have; not talking about ambition, that’s a totally different thing really.

Looking back, I get to relive all those memories that have been fulfilling and worthy of everything, that is what you call satisfaction and it is verily overrated. Keeping your expectation (of people) at a level is important as well, not everybody can surpass that you know :3. Coming back to reality, there will always be those who you hate or like a lot. But do you really show it? It’s better to confide because let’s face the world has too much hatred already. A bit of humbleness hurts no one. Even when I show humbleness people take it for weakness, but that’s their problem why bother changing yourself? You will find the ones who like you for what you are no matter how less that number is.

This undergrad life will be a roller coaster of a ride, make no mistake but the bonds you make will be forever in your heart and you will be wanting more of it no matter how much you have already made. This will be the circle for you, the main reason to look up to, the center of attraction with everything happening around you will be more involved with this place for the years to come. That’s how it is at least for that amount of time and surely you will be missing it when all of this comes to an end So, break them shackles and see how you can handle things as they come.

Birthdays!

Favorite month started in the worst way possible. The unexpected happened, something we never thought would happen in this wonderful land of ours. Some were praised, some were scrutinized, more or less the country got divided with their own sense of opinion leaving logic behind. Yes, it wore off like every other bad thing that has happened over the years, but in this case too early to believe.  It was tough to find a proper title for this post, and I am not so sure whether I came with the right one, but the right ending is always the one you choose.

Now why am I writing on ‘Birthdays’? Well, because it is one of those days we mark in our hearts every year. We humans want to feel special and this day sort of guarantees that. Though much depends on how much effort people close to us put to make this day special for us as we can’t make this day all so special on our own now, can we?

Birthday is a day, when close ones pamper you with gifts and blessings. Some feel this special vibe throughout their life and many lose the essence of it by the mid-20s at best. We all have an inclination towards feeling special, like, who doesn’t like it! But what is so special about this day? This could just be another day. Gifts? People you have been yearning to see for so long? No, it’s the memories that come with it, the memories that one will cherish for a lifetime, because each birthday comes with a different celebration and trust (me) those moments are priceless.

My favorite months come one after another, July and August, because people close to me were born in these months. From bloodlines to infatuations, living to the dead, these months have them all. There was a time I felt special for being ‘leo’ and the feeling is still the same even though I laugh about it as this is just an astrological sign of the zodiac meant to kindle life more than it is.

Back in the day when I was young, the most awaited thing on birthday was cutting the cake. The cake was like everything; from how it looked, how it tasted and the size of it as well. Now I hardly care about how it looks or anything for that matter. As long as it tastes great everything else is secondary. As we grow up the gifts change in stature, but our expectation of gifts lessens along with it. But I am not that old and I love gifts xD, and it will always be appreciated (for whoever is reading this :3)

Celebration also changes as we get older. Now spending time with friends is more natural, whereas before, time spent with friends was little and very much anticipated and loved. It is still similar but the places have switched so has priority. But we should still make some time for our close ones, make them a part of it because we do not know whether there will be a next one or not.

There is this amazing trend of showing how much you adore the person on their birthdays through social media. Like posting picture with them, writing a caption or not writing anything at all. Just a picture that can describe a thousand words and more. Facebook makes you feel so special, no? So many people posting on your wall just to wish you on your birthday, quite the feeling. Sarcasm not intended, no! Because people do it when they may not have that chance to say it in person, that has to mean something. But the real things always happen to you in reality not in your virtual life, when it comes down to the latter you are not going the right way. So be more fluent and easy going when you interact with people in person so that they can feel the same way and are comfortable with you being around.

It’s never too late to start afresh, you never know whether you have 1 night or a thousand more nights for that matter. So take every day as it comes don’t let it go in vain, we are very lucky in terms of life giving us opportunities to do better, to be better. 

Resolutions are as good as anything to start anew. Make resolutions for yourself that you can accomplish by the turn of the year. Selfish pricks are the best of them all, with no emotion. Emotion is the thing that holds you from being the best of yourself, less emotion you have the better. So go out there say what you want, do what you feel and never back down from expressing yourself in the truest way. If people get hurt that’s normal, at least the reason is genuine enough. People who truly want you in their lives like you the way you are otherwise they wouldn’t be there in the first place. A burst of emotion is a good way of healing yourself, but make sure you are doing it with the right person otherwise it can turn out to be a blasphemy.

It might be awhile till I write again, till then hope you all have a great time and enjoy the good things in life.    

Raveling cluster of thoughts

Dilemma is a common thing in everyone’s life, starting from the most confident people to the ones that are not confident at all. But life doesn’t stop there, because we end up taking a decision one way or another. Sometimes those decisions are based on how we feel and at times on what we should be doing irrespective of our feelings. Always agreeing to what your heart wants may not be right most of the time because the world doesn’t revolve on emotions rather it is about how realistic you are and how well you put up an act to defend your position. Deep down inside we try to be happy and believe in our values, yes, it is not easy but come on we got one life so why not make the most out of it? And people’s opinion about how you should be living your life is mostly unimportant, because it’s your life! Learn to take your own decisions and back them up.

Speak up, let your opinion be known. People will judge you anyway, because that’s the easy part. We humans tend to do what feels easy and try avoiding tough situations. But you are your best judge. If you continue thinking about how people will feel, then you will have a hard time being happy. Fall and stand up don’t just wait for someone to pick you up because there won’t always be one. But if you can’t do that then stay put because at times you are that miserable human deserving to be in that position to begin with.

Over time throughout our life we will meet people of different types, some will push us to do better, some will try taking us down with them and some will make us feel happy about ourselves. Now who do you keep because let’s face it, you can’t keep everyone of them. Find a balance because each are important on the basis of their own roles. Keep people that are real no matter what type they belong to. Because real people are hard to find and even harder to keep. Most people don’t actually say what they feel and can fake it big time. Such a wonderful attribute. You can and will fail at times while trying to figure that kind of people. You can never be so good as to judge people’s decision because you don’t live their life and everyone has a story of their own.

Being someone who always had a hard time expressing feelings in a convenient way, I don’t really know whether you have got what I have been blabbering about till now :p. It is important to talk meaningful no matter how less you are speaking, say something that makes sense otherwise you are just another wannabe trying to be cool and the world has plenty of them already. Be different, that doesn’t mean doing something stupid, it rather means doing things your way, the way you want to get things done and improve on it. Self-improvement is a continuous process and a time consuming one as well. Take your time, breathe, think and perceive things the rest will take it’s course accordingly.

Choices define who we are. Situation can be different and on them depends the decision. Same situation, different people, different side and you are taking a decision you never thought you would take. That’s how the world goes. Nothing is certain, yet we humans behave in a manner believing situation won’t change, making plans for the next few years, even though it is very possible we might die in the very next second.

Confidence, something many people fail to realize the importance of. The right amount, neither over nor under, can help you achieve anything and everything. Things you never dared do before will seem easy to you just because the faith is there, the belief that it is possible. That takes you a long way my friend, more than you can imagine.  

This is me trying to write something meaningful in an unorthodox way, well you can say that. The reason for writing this is because I wanted to. Yeah opinions do matter, but listen to your heart at times, live truly, the way you are meant to.

Hopefully there will be a next time, till then Adios.